From the Other Side: I Remember How Hard it Was

It was our 5th anniversary and I was a few months pregnant with our 2nd child and we had a toddler at our newly purchased home.

I think we went out for dinner, but honestly can’t really remember.

See, I was tired that year. In fact, I was tired for almost a decade. I was deeply, overwhelmingly exhausted. My body was tired, my brain was tired. Every part of my soul was fighting to keep myself present and alive.

I remember back to that time period and how hard it was. How my husband and I would attempt to move around each other in our home, both of us dissatisfied. I remember sitting in the dark with him in our hot tub where he would lay out his complaints about our relationship. How our romance was gone. How I was gone.